In his first book new author and former career cop, Gary Rubie undresses the stigma and opens the curtain that says cops don’t cry. He uses a unique style of poetry and illustration to tell the story of his life. Rubie talks of abuse, broken relationships, dating a Hollywood actress, the darkness of Policing, deep depression, suffering job related career ending Post Traumatic Stress Disorder which led to suicide attempts, addictions, his own arrests and incarceration and his eventual treatment and recovery. Share his victories, his triumphs over all adversities; this is his story of redemption and hope. Truly a one of a kind book